Vivid dreams

My dreams have been very vivid lately. In all of them I have been encouraged by the fact that I’m healthy and walking. To me, this symbolizes a change in my psyche, hopefully on a very deep level at which I will begin to see the manifestation of my desire. Only time will tell. But this comes on the tail end of a realization last week that I’ve been looking for something externally that I really need to find within.

It’s been a pretty painful realization, humiliating, mortifying, and one that, if I chose to, would be very harshly judged. In fact, I’ve tried not to judge myself and had a very difficult week battling it out with the parts of me that feel some recrimination is necessary. That, on top of the other events from last week concerning my cats, has made it a very difficult time. But, I trudge on.

Interestingly, my dreams are often imaginative and revealing. The other day I had a dream in which I answered the door (which is a sunken entryway that I cannot access from wheelchair) and met a construction worker. He told me about a job he was doing nearby and I ended up bartering with him to get Ed some work. Later that morning, a lady called with a job for Ed to bid on. I felt the dream was some sort of premonition, but I also thought it was funny.

That same night I also had a dream about my kids swimming in a hotel pool and claiming that people had been urinating in it. Go figure. I haven’t tried to interpret that one yet. What are your dreams saying to you?