On kindness and blessings...

I have been much kinder to my self in the past couple of weeks and much kinder to others. I made the decision to cultivate love and nothing more and not to judge other people. If I was brave I would put a rubber band around my wrist and snapped it every time I tend to judge someone, but I’m afraid I would have a permanent red mark on my wrist. :]

So instead, I made a rule that every time I find myself wanting to judge another person instead I have to bless them. I’m blessing many people and so far it feels really good. I’m finding that I have a lot more patience and compassion for others this is extending to the way I view myself. I’m really trying hard not to get frustrated and place expectations on myself, realizing that the expectation of perfection or “normalcy” causes me to compare myself to an ideal that I cannot currently reach.

The other day I was trying to get a shirt on and getting very frustrated because it was taking me longer than I thought it should. When I stepped back and asked myself why the frustration I realized that it was my expectations that were causing the frustration. At least I was getting my shirt on without help. That’s what it comes down to most days, at least lately.

And so I’m learning to be grateful and not compare myself to anyone, least of all myself. A very important lesson, and one that I’m still working on but hope I’m making progress.